R&RPosted: Wednesday, March 3, 2010
2 -3 ….He leads me beside still waters, he restores my soul….
In the first few months of the 2007, KK’s mom had passed, the spare car windows were shot out, Marcellous was in the hospital, then the spare car was stolen, one of the kids decided to steal and misuse my credit card, my company announced it was closing the Richmond offices and were moving them ½ way across the country. It seemed like it was one thing right after the other.
Before KK left for NJ, I had an emergency appendectomy and was in the hospital for a few days. Poor KK…didn’t understand WHAT was going on. First his mom was in the hospital…she died. Then, his dad…a few weeks later…ended up in the hospital, the beginning of one complication after another. Then, I (the only other “family” he has in Richmond) end up there! Thankfully, it was only for a few days. It was yet another one of Satan’s attacks. But, it was a perfect time for God to get my undivided attention. For several weeks, I spent time reading the Bible, praying, meditating, spending time on the front porch. God was definitely doing a work in me. During those weeks, He led me by still waters…and restored my soul. It was a time of rest after a couple of crazy months. It was just me…and God. It was refreshing.
Earlier in the year, I had been restless in my job. It wasn’t challenging to me anymore. So, when the firm announced the move…it was time for me to really reflect on what God wanted from me next in my career. During this time, a lot was stirring in me in regards to my community. Is this the time to make a move? God spoke to me through a number of people independently… “Remain open.” was the consistent message. So, I practiced at remaining open, making no decisions. Why would God lead me to this community and my kids…to my home, only to take me to Missouri? Why would God provide me with a great job, only to have me leave it? My finances provide for me…and for some family members.
Every day, I go to work with what most would call the ‘wealthy’. I came home every day to what some would call ‘the least of these”. There are so many similarities between these 2 groups.
The Lord brought people in my life who were making 6-7 digits a year trying to decide what latest gadget they wanted next, what prep school to send their child, upgrading their house, car, or phone, how to make the next dollar…trying to find happiness.
Then, there are those who have to decide between paying the light bill, providing food for the table, clothes for their children because they outgrew last year’s or buying Christmas gifts. Afraid to introduce the kids to Santa…in fear that their hopes would get too high.
What I had come to learn….is that we ALL are the ‘least of the these’ if we don’t know the Lord. It doesn’t matter what color we are, what socioeconomic group we are in, or where we live. There’s financially poor…then there is spiritually poor. What does the Bible say about the Needle’s Eye? That it is harder for a rich man to get into heaven than it is for a camel to go through the needle’s eye? So…would I rather be poor and have an easier time getting into heaven or rich and a harder time? That is a tough question. Can I be some where in the middle?
But…a question that I will have to ponder in the near future as we face my job elimination. Regardless, we will be richer than MOST of the world….with a roof over our head, food on the table and clean water to drink.
“Give us this day our daily bread.” has a whole new meaning to me as I think about what the future holds. One thing I know…God is in control!